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Monday, October 29, 2012

Finding Mercy Again

 Here is a sonnet I wrote for English class, hope you enjoy:

What if I am drifting away from You?
For my life You once completely consumed.
I cringe at the thought that it might be true,
The old life I've so easily assumed.


What a horrid thought!  Ever haunting thought:
I've come so far where you said not to go.
My pride cries, "How could I ever be bought
By the world, with all her ideals so low?"


I'm fighting hard to get back to You Lord,
Being with You has ne'er felt so crucial
But Your love, how can I ever afford?
Without Your blood, running back is futile.


I've been dying to be drowned in Your love;
Forgotten love I've ne'er been deprived of.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

God Has Some Pretty Awesome Breath!

Many of my posts are written for Christian and secular audiences alike, but this post imparticuler is written for Christians.  This post is for improving your faith and knowledge of God, for those who already have faith and knowledge of God.

I have been churning this post around in my head for a while (as you can tell, do to the lack of posts for a couple months) and I thank my friend Shelby for setting the keystone of this post in my mind.

Knowledge of God is the only knowledge that ultimately matters.  Without knowledge of God, all other knowledge is in vain.  The sad thing is that some people gain knowledge of God for its own sake.  Gaining knowledge of God for its own sake is very dangerous.  It makes us prideful and decieted.  The reason we should gain knowledge of God is in hope that we might know the Lord better.

The most obvious way to start gaining knowledge of God is through reading the Bible.  Yes, that thick old book full of amazing wonders.  It may seem a bit scary to read such a book.  Many people say that it is a rule book for Christians.  We Christians know different, in Paul's 2nd letter to Timothy he states:

"All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work." (2 Timothy 3:16,17, NIV)

Just think about that for a minute.  All Scripture is God-breathed.  God inspired men up to thousands of years apart to write the Bible.  God spoke through sinners like us so that we would jot it down not knowing that thousands of years later we would have a book of it.  The Bible is literally God speaking to you, not some over rated rule book!  So what is the point of God speaking to us through this book and what is it useful for?  You've got it!  It's so we may use it to teach each other God's word, rebuke and correct each other as well as ourselves, against ungodliness.  Here comes the juicy part!: training each other in righteousness so we may be equipped for every good work.

The Bible is the only book that can cut our pride down and make us feel God's raw love at the same time.  The more we know about God, the more we find that God doesn't just know about us, He knows us personally.  He knows our horrible true colors and still loves us despite every disgusting shade.

When we read the Bible we usually tend to treat it like a buffet.  We take some of God's words to heart while disregarding other things He says.  Treat the Bible like your favorite bag of chips.  You take that bag of chips to your bedroom and eat all of them, you don't just take one chip and throw out the rest (I mean seriously, who does that?!)! Don't be a tater hater!  Much like eating those chips you have to read the Bible and take everything you read to heart, not just this little verse and that little verse.

A good way to begin reading the Bible is to start with Jesus: The New Testament!  After you read the New Testament you can read the Old Testament.  Always connect what you are reading to Jesus.  Without Jesus, everything in the Bible was written in vain.

There are many other ways to study God such as reading devotionals and apologetics.  Before you read either of these I would encourage you to read some of the Bible first.  Many false devotions and apologetics can take God's word out of context and if you aren't careful you will believe the lies that are being fed to you by those false teachings.

Once you are reading the Bible it is important that you encourage your Christian friends to read the Bible also.  Start them out with some verses that connect with their lives, something they can easily relate to.  Please note that I am only telling you to encourage fellow Christians to read the Bible, if someone is an atheist, most of the time they have no business reading the Bible.  Many atheists read the Bible for the sole purpose of finding dirt on the Christian faith and it is very easy for them to take a verse out of context and claim things that aren't true about Jesus, God, and the Bible itself.

In the beginning when God made Adam, He breathed the breath of life into him (Genesis 2:7) to make him come alive.  Since every word in the Bible is God breathed, every time we take God's words to heart He is breathing eternal life into our hearts.  I would say that God has some pretty awesome breath, wouldn't you?

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

A Brief Study of C.S.Lewis


This is an essay I wrote for school:

When most people think of C.S.Lewis they think of him as the children’s writer who wrote The Chronicles of Narnia.  I have read some of his books and started to wonder what his life was like, what experiences lead him to acquire the knowledge and beliefs he had about the God he had faith in.  It didn't take much research to find out how interesting his life really was.  I used to look up to him as a writer, I now look up to him as a person too because of the noble decisions he made in his life despite the situations he found himself in.

Clive Stapes Lewis was born on November 29, 1898 in Belfast, Northern Ireland.  He was raised in a Christian family of four; he had an older brother named Warren and two loving parents: Albert James Lewis and Augusta Hamilton Lewis.  In 1905, Jack (the name he had given himself at the age of three) and his family moved to the outskirts of Belfast and gave their newfound home the name "Little Lea".

Three years later on his father’s birthday, August 23rd, Jack's mother died of cancer.  His frantic persistent prayers that his mother would get better seemed to have been ignored by God.  The Bible his mother gave him shortly before she died was buried in the bottom of a drawer.  Years later in 1912, when Jack was 13, he abandoned his Christian faith without looking back.

One morning in 1916 an average walk to check the mail brightened his entire day as he opened up an acceptance letter from Oxford University.  The next year he was a student at Oxford from April 26 until September.  Then World War I started.  Jack enlisted in the British army and was commissioned as an officer in the 3rd Battalion, Somerset Light Infantry by September 25th.  He reached his 19th birthday as he reached the frontlines in the Somme Valley in France.  Shortly after on April 15, 1918, he was wounded during the Battle of Arras on Mount Berenchon.  By October Jack was ready to fight again; he fought for two more months and was discharged.

Now Jack was faced with a tragedy and a responsibility.  His roommate in the army and close friend Paddy Moore was killed in battle.  Later in Lewis's life he would preach a sermon and say this about death in war:

"The doctrine that war is always a greater evil seems to imply a materialist ethic, a belief that death and pain are the greatest evils.  But I do not think they are.  I think the suppression of a higher religion by a lower, or even a higher secular culture by a lower, a much greater evil.  Nor am I greatly moved by the fact that many of the individuals we strike down are innocent.  That seems, in a way, to make war not worse but better.  All men die, and most men miserably.  That two soldiers on opposite sides, each believing his own country to be in the right, each at the moment when his selfishness is most in abeyance and his will to sacrifice in the ascendant, should kill [each] other in plain battle seems to me by no means one of the most terrible things in this very terrible world."

At this point in his life though, Jack had no such views.  He remembered when he was eating dinner with the Moore family; Paddy had asked him if he would take care of his mother and sister if he died.  Jack looked his friend in the eye and promised him he would.  So in the summer of 1920, Paddy's mother and sister moved to Oxford and rented a house there.  Jack would take care of the Moore family the rest of his life.

Five years later Lewis was elected a Fellow of Magdalen College, Oxford.  He now served as a tutor in English Language and Literature.  A year later, Jack met another Fellow and rooted a friendship that would last for the rest of his life.  The Fellows name was J.R.R. Tolkien, a devout Christian.  Jack found that they both had a lot in common.  They had both served in World War I and their mothers both died when they were around the same age.  Except when Tolkien’s mother died, it seemed that it strengthened his relationship with God instead of weakening it.  Tolkien and Lewis had many talks about faith and God.  Those talks impacted Jack and in 1929 he became a theist.  He had been having the feeling that he was trying to fight off God, he then came to the conclusion that if God didn't exist there would be no one to fight off.  So he gave in, even if he didn't believe Jesus was the Son of God.  The same year he claimed his belief in God, his father died on September 24th.

Two years later Jack was talking with Tollers (his nickname for Tolkien) and his friend Hugo Dyson.  They both shared with Jack their relationships with Jesus and why they believed him to be the Son of God.  Not long after, Jack and his brother Warren were on their way to the zoo.  He explained later: "When we [Warnie and Jack] set out [by motorcycle to the Whipsnade Zoo] I did not believe that Jesus Christ was the Son of God, and when we reached the zoo I did."  Now Lewis had reclaimed his relationship with Jesus and developed a new reverence for it.

In 1933 Lewis joined a group called the Inklings.  The Inklings were a group of friends who got together for discussions and good times.  The group consisted of Tollers, Hugo Dyson, Warren, Charles Williams, Dr. Robert Havard, Owen Bartfield, and Neville Coghill.  During many Inkling meetings Jack and Tollers shared their writings like Tolkien's The Hobbit and essays from C.S. Lewis's Mere Christianity.

The Guardian published 31 "Screwtape Letters" in weekly installments in 1941 from May 2nd to November 28th.  These letters were written from the view of a demon named Screwtape to his nephew demon Wormwood.  The letters were giving Wormwood advice on how to tempt his "patient" or person he was assigned to tempt.  These letters were later published as C.S.Lewis's The Screwtape Letters.  Then in 1944 Lewis did 7 radio talks on 7 Tuesdays in a row.  These radio talks were very popular because they disscussed major issues about the second World War that was raging at the time.  In one of these radio talks he said:

"Christianity agrees . . . that this universe is at war.  But it does not think this is a war between independent powers.  It thinks it is a civil war, a rebellion, and that we are living in a part of the universe occupied by the rebel.  Enemy-occupied territory--that is what this world is.  Christianity is the story of how the rightful king has landed; you might say landed in disguise, and is calling us all to take part in a great campaign of sabotage.  When you go to church you are really listening-in to the secret wireless from our friends: that is why the enemy is so anxious to prevent us from going.  He does it by playing on our conceit and laziness and intellectual snobbery."

The radio talks were published into a book under the title Mere Christianity.  Not long after, Jack published The Great Divorce--a book about a bus ride on the outskirts of Heaven--in weekly installments in the Guardian.  The Chronicles of Narnia were published from 1950 to 1956.  By the time Lewis was publishing the last book of the series--The Last Battle--he found that one of his good friends by the name of Joy Davidsman Gresham found out her visa to stay in England wasn't approved.  Jack married her so she would be a legal British citizen.

One day Joy tripped over a phone cord and her leg snapped.  At the hospital she found out she had bone cancer at her thigh.  On the 21st of March, 1957, Jack stood by Joy's hospital bed saying his vows.  They had another marriage ceremony to make their previously private marriage public.  Finally it seemed that Joy was going to get better and the cancer was dying off.

Unfortunately Joy's cancer came back not long afterwards and her health took a turn for the worst.  This didn't stop them from going on an 11 day trip to Greece.  About a month after this trip Joy died at the age of 45.  Much like Jack's mother, she left behind two young sons.  In 1961 Lewis published A Grief Observed which was an account of his suffering after Joy's death.  This is a small passage he wrote in this book about his wife:

"For a good wife contains so many persons in herself.  What was H. not to me?  She was my daughter and my mother, my pupil and my teacher, my subject and my sovereign; and always, holding all these in solution, my trusty comrade, friend, shipmate, fellow-soldier.  My mistress; but at the same time all that any man friend (and I have good ones) has ever been to me.  Perhaps more.  If we had never fallen in love we should have none the less been always together, and created a scandal.  That's what I meant when I once praised her for her 'masculine virtues.'  But she soon put a stop to that by asking how I'd like to be praised for my feminine ones. . .”

Solomon calls his bride Sister.  Could a woman be a complete wife unless, for a moment, in one particular mood, a man felt almost inclined to call her Brother?"

In 1963 one week before his 65th birthday on November 22nd, C.S.Lewis died after suffering a heart attack and some kidney problems.  His death was not very well publicized because America was busy mourning the death of John F. Kennedy who had been assassinated that very same day.  The grave of Clive Stapes Lewis is in the yard of Holy Trinity Church in Headington Quarry, Oxford.

C.S.Lewis made a major impact in this world.  When he was alive he provided soldiers with advice over the radio and children with the timeless Chronicles of Narnia which are still popular today and being made into several major motion pictures.  Many people in the past, present and future revere C.S. Lewis’s works and his story of faith despite the anguish and suffering in his life.  His remarkable life is now a legend which continues to live on.